Simple or complex?

I try to draw out my thoughts that are furrowing my mind and I don't succeed. There are many thoughts; they are random, they have different colors and they give me different moods. I have hard times which bring me down and I have amenities which make me rise but to be honest at this moment I am not sure whether I am sad or happy. I only know that I am alive. And I also know that tomorrow will be a wonderful day in which I will focus my energy on hitting my supreme target; to have a beautiful life. There are times when I feel really really small compared to the whole universe and there are times when I feel the most important person in the whole world and the most loved one. I don't care which of the two moments are the closest to the truth but I can tell you now, that feeling important feels really great. I will work hard in order to be important in terms of career as I already feel important on my love side. I have days when I believe I am funny, and days when I can't even stand myself. I believe I have friends which are always there for me and sometimes our friendship hardly exists. Everything is circular, even life itself is a sequence of parables. This can never change, but I can slowly make my way to the top and go back down to have a reason to work hard again to go back to the top. And every time i make it to the top, I will enjoy the view and learn as much as possible from it.