Confused

I know how it is. It happens to me very often. I wake up , I look in the mirror and smile. I smile because I like what i see, because I'm pleased with what I've got, with what I'm feeling and with what I love. Because I do love.

But sometimes, i feel like i don't even want to wake up. It seems like I'm scared to look in the mirror and face something that i don't like. I feel like i want to isolate myself like a pigeon closed in cage. He never feels comfortable behind those bars, away from doing what he likes to do, like stretching his wings to cover the entier sky and fly as many miles as he can just to feel the freedom. He doesn't feel happy being closed, like i don't feel happy when I'm confused. Being confused is part of you. But I don't know what my destination is going to be. Sometimes I wake up in the morning and I'm thinking what on earth do I want to be in this life? Do I want to be big and drive a big truck ? Or do I want to be bigger, work in an office, dress in a lovely black suit and wait for something new to happen ? Or maybe I would like to drive miles and miles without stopping and visit loads of countries, scour the montains and hills, descover the green meadows and the blue shiny lakes, run barefoot through the snow and watch the beautiful sun reflecting its amazing colour on the dried leaves during autumn time. I don't know. People make my feelings even more confused by pretending they care about you when they don't even know how messed up your mind is. They make is even worse . But why ? That might be an easy question to answer to. They simply don't care. Now your heart takes hostage. Love makes me feel the most confused person on this world. It's like dreaming about you and I being just HAPPY, but at the same time i don't want to hope that you feel the same about me. Every feeling, moment, word and action of your life feels like a shooting star. You left me with problems without solutions and I left you with questions without answers. I think that is fair enough. Now tell me how do you feel when you're confused.